It's morning 3.32am n i've just finished watching pirates1. Nice show i must say.
I'm finding a part time job, n i need a high paying one. i NEED money.
Mainly payment for my doc fees. It isn't going to be cheap i must say. First
visit was rather nice. Doc Lee is a nice lady, she looks cute but puts on a low
cut dress =P I do feel comfortable with her arnd. Was made to do ECG on tat day.
Mum was so funny, she said my heartbeat is normal, cos there's sign of it
beating. Well, if there isn't i tink i'll most probably not be alive? It doesn't
seem normal to me. But nvm, just wait for no call from Doc Lee and im
safe.
Had a terrible nite ytd, diff breathing and constant giddiness. From this
morn, i started taking blood pressure to make sure it doesn't go low to the
extreme. But still it has been dangling arnd the norm/low level. Approx 100mmHg,
60mmHg, 57-8/min. I fear dying in my slp as there's chances occuring.
Stop sch, stop exam, start holi. Im exempted from exam and studies for the
time being. Some frenz might tink i shld cont. But i personally prefer stopping,
in someway i requested for it. 2 reasons, gives mi stress and it wont do my
result gd. Doc Lee say it's unfair for me to cont my studies now, as it'll be more like a judgement on how badly my illness have affected me rather than how my actually abilities are. Sch n Studies realli equate to HIGH stress for me, cos when I was released from the Ssss, things grew better. Although not much but still did. N im glad about it =)
Really appreciate S2J, fen n min's care. Of cos, my family esp my mum n elder sis. My mum accompanied mi to the doc and waited all alone outside for approx 2+++ hrs while i spoke to Doc Lee. My sis was the only one who made no attempt to make me feel disgusted by my illness. She was even able to joke with mi about it, which was described as "so BAD" by Doc Lee.
I'll do just fine, keeping my weak heart beating as usually. Quote from Doc Lee, "She'll get well........ It's not IF you get well, it's WHEN you get well." I'm grateful, Doc Lee!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
My Heart Will Go On
Posted by DarKneSs at 11:31 AM