life?

months past... mid yr had already past n o-level chi is coming soon... i not stress but i feel depressed...

too many things have been happening in this few days.. the feeling is weird.. i feel down.. n i cant bring myself to be cheery like before.. i just wanna be alone.. i have been crying for the past 2 nights.. im tired.. im afraid.. im breaking up..

2 days ago, i had a quarrel with my sis over something minor.. n we haven't been talking since then.. im feeling terrible.. my younger sis n elder sis gets along better... they study in the same sec sch, noe the same people, sleep in the same room.. they talk bout things n i never noe.. im jealous but i cant do anithing.. im sick n tired of it... im tired..

i seem to be losing friends beside mi.. im tired, realli tired.. i treasure this friends of mine.. but some seem to be disappointing mi again n again... y must this happen?!

my family is also facing some difficulties.. everyone is very stress esp my parents... how can i help them??? i wanna work but they will definately not allow.. WAT CAN I DO??!!!

relationship... y cant i concentrate on just likeing one guy.. guys enter n leave my heart easily.. but there's just one hu still stays in my heart... the first person i ever truly loved..im easily touched by guys.. but tat is not love... i cant maintain a relationship without true love.. so i decided to give up... but although i noe that my true love will not stay, i still cant forget him... he might not be the perfect guy im looking for.. but he captured my heart... my heart is kept in a jail, the door is open but im unwilling to leave this sad place... i refuse to let go.. n so i continue to suffer.. i cant find someone to talk to now.. i wanna go to the fountain.. be alone...

so this is life.. how life is like... accept reality.. si hui!