wat's happening?

had a great talk with jia tian yesterday. n found out tat many things are all not going well. but i found out tat there is nothing much i can do, i can onli try my best. try n try n try, but i noe tat is not wat i want n also not wat jia tian wan.. not try but must.. wat is happening??!! can sum one tell mi.. is it my problem or others?

had a meeting wif the heads yesterday, n i was suppose to put prefects into suitable places for their duty. cos i noe tat mon will be quite a messy day, therefore i need better prefects to be a important position. but after looking at the list of sec 3 prefects i hav, i can onli find bout 5 to 6 prefects hu r realli gd prefects n r able to take up important duties. Y???

jia tian talk to mi at nite. n make mi tink about alot of things. one of the things is, y m i a vice head. wat is the meaning of vice head?? isn't vice head suppose to assit head? m i doing wat i m suppose to do? m i doing the rite thing? or is all this juz a mistake? im just being put into this position becos there is no one else to put in? jt told mi tat the exco shld not keep things among themselves, n i agree totally. n its not exco keeping among themselves, i dun noe alot of things about the prefectorial board too. y? cos i hav story telling n no one bother to tell mi. haha... so mani cases about things i dun noe.. i told jia tian, i might look veri blur infront of all of u. i keep on saying i dun noe. it is not becos i dun wanna tell u guys, it is tat i REALLI DUNNOE!!! there r even sumthings tat the prefects noe n i dun. wat is the meaning of all this.

decision r made n i follow, i tried my best to tell them my stand. but they juz manage to find excuses to get their way into action. wat can i do.. is it becos i m not tat strong in wat i say? i dun hav the will to do things tat i want? how can i change her stubborn attitude? HOW??? wat can i do.. everyone wants mi to change her, talk to her. but do they noe tat it is diff, veri diff. not onli becos of her status but becos of alot of things...

wat can i do? save mi pls!