Lee Si Hui

Long since i've last blog. Just imported my blogs notes to my facebook acct. so now peps can view my blog post in my fb la.

Just had some thoughts that I would like to voice out to some. I'm not emo so don't worry.

I've mentioned to alot that I am someone who is afraid of guys. Some might think I am bullshitting but I am serious when I say all this. When guys try to get close to me, just like when I'm clubbing, I will try to siam them and the same goes to some of my guy frens. Nt tt I dislike any of you, just that I dont feel comfortable. So hope you guys can understand. It is the problem with me not any of you =)

Recently, alot of things happened in my life and have made me thought through thoroughly. I've grown much but I believe alot still think I am childish or in a nicer way, I am still young. Now, I understand myself more. How I deal with things that happens in my life be it work or relations. And I realise the difference between both is very big.

My poly, sec and pri sch fren see me as a Big Sister or in other terms 大姐大. But most of my other work place colleagues see me as 小妹妹. (Peps, I'm nt just referring just U but all my previous work places). I think the only thing I can say is that I am counted as the more mature for people my age but no matter what, I am still young. I don't like the feeling of being treated as a little sister, seriously dun noe why. I had always thought it should be nice being doted and cared in such way. Haa! No idea what I am thinking.

Now next topic, my relations matter. Alot are VERY concern about me and worried that I'll get hurt if I don't "open up my thinking". But I want to use this post to tell all my colleagues, bosses and friends that I've thought through. I am perfectly alright. I've learnt to let go and not to give anyone any pressure. Although sometimes, I'll still think about some stuff and get a little troubled. But do not worry, I am firm in my decision and will be able to walk through all this. I always love to say this phrase, "I AM SI HUI!", nothing will be totally impossible for me. So please, dont worry about me =)

I am planning for my future. SMU or SIM. Difference, 4yrs n 2yrs. SMU=More recognised. hmmm.....

Oh ya, just to mention. I got depression nt becos of studies k. So dont worry too much about me coping my studies in future =)

JUSTIN I LOVE YOU!!!!
You really made a great difference in my life. I really have sooooo soooo so much to say to you but I dun noe what to say at the same time. Thanks for being there, even when u're in camp.

Amos, Thanks for your regular sms about your army life. It might sound funny for me to thank you. But you sms actually make me feel that at least I still have got a fren who is willing to share things happening in his life with mi.

Liquids Colleagues, Thanks for all you understanding. Going through both my moody and happy times. Talking to me, trying to open me up and making me feel cared.

S2J, Thanks for letting me have you all in my heart. I miss you guys and appreciate all your efforts to meet me, meeting up at places that fits me me n me. It's only when I meet u guys will I hate the feeling of growing up. Only you guys could do that.

I just feel like there's so much so much I wanna tell everyone. Maybe I am long winded but I just think there's a need to let others noe what I feel.

ps. I now understand what teng loong meant when he said I am someone who is quite 恐怖. But to me, it's something I like =)