Darkness Lee

im back blogging after so long.. didn't realise time passes soooo fast, yet i wish tat it'll slow down.. my life is in a terrible mess.. just realli wish to enjoy this holi n hope tat the next sem nv comes.. i dun wish to see them!

exams over, so it's holi time.. practically did nth but just eat slp n watch tv.. of cos going to work too n sometimes doing choc.. n one more, pestering my mum to bring mi out early for breakfast.. now she's seriously afraid when i ask her wat we're eating tml.. haha! n she said this to mi, "can u faster go back sch study?!" hahahaha! i love going to breakfast with my mum.. maybe she wont understand y, but i just want to enjoy being loved n cared for.. im not saying tat no one show mi love. of cos there are, my family, S2J n ket-qnt... but spending half a year with grp of people whom im sick to hang out with.. haiz!

i tink i gained at least 2 kg this week.. i've been eating eating eating n eating!!! non stop! cos of all the praying, dinners n also BBQ!!! haha! ytd was tcher day celeb, went back to sch n miss the noodles! but nv eat cos got to go to dad's office to eat.. ate alot! then went tracz bbq, she's leaving for UK soon.. slowly everyone's leaving.. haiz! ate alot alot alot too! but im just glad to see my sec sch mates n S2J! pour out everything to them.. haiz! i tink i made them worry alot..

today went to loyang with s2j, help mr chong! fun fun fun! mud spaaaaaa!!!! hahaha! after tat went back hm did choc n then prepare go dinner at my old hse.. eat ALOT!!!! again!

this thurs was my last day of work.. sad to leave.. have been working there for 6 months! after tat rush to class chalet.. i actually rush there with 2 packets of hello panda.. n all tat happened... i had a urge to cry n so went outside the room to msg px.. swallow the tears tat wanted to flow n now it's pouring out...

im totally, utterly disgusted by them! i DISLIKE THEM! I DO NOT WISH TO SEE THEM AGAIN!!!! but do i have a choice? dont say bout losing my laughter.. m i even going to lose my smile?

in the past, i could still laugh like crazy when im with s2j... but now, i tink it affected mi so much tat sometimes, i just cant bring the laugh out again... i have half or even 2 n half more year to go... wat should i do????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorri for making this post a sad post... n to S2J, u guys r still my onli frenz tat can make mi laugh like i've nv done in this whole year... I LOVE U GUYS!!!!!!!!

"im playing hide n seek, i've found sadness but happiness is still hiding"