major change in my life

Im tired, Im sick, Im worried, Im struggling!!!

Wat's happening to my life?! so many changes happening and im struggling to adapt. Life is no longer as easy and simple as the past. People i meet are so diff from those i've seen before. or maybe they're the same and sadly their personality is those tat i dun like!

i hate going out now! i hate sch! i hate myself for hating all this things! ARGHZ!!!! im so tired after everyday. Sch work is ok, i enjoy studying. But i just dun like the environment im studying in. Travelling is another stupid thing i've got to manage. 1.5 hrs before lesson start to make it on time. Going hm is another issue. 3 hrs of travelling. haiz!

the people here are pissing mi off. even the closer frenz are drifting away. understanding each other isn't something tat's gd. the more u understand a person, the more u might dislike them. i feel this way now. insulted like no bodies business. i noe im fat but tat doesn't mean u shld keep on saying mi n even talk bout my family members. stop demanding for a reason n when i gave u the reason, u just suddenly stop talking to mi. i told myself to change to fit them, but sometimes, they shld change too!

work is the onli time i'll feel gd. i LOVE working! dealing wif customers are more satisfying and comforting. at least u feel better when u see them. i seriously miss my sec sch fren! seriously! esp S2J! guys!!! I MISS U damn lot!!!! im suffering in this stupid environment n i tink i'll be suffocating soon! i hate talking now, i hate being in a crowd. i want to be left alone!

i've changed my work time to weekdays instead of weekends. need to manage time and weekends are needed to complete the numerous proj tat we have. the onli way is to work on weekends. in additional im losing the time i spend wif my family. n also time needed for rest