Darkness Lee

5th Sept... my bdae is over n im already officially 16... finally can watch NC 16 show... so happy...

had a realli great fun ytd... so nice to have a grp of frenz wif u...

reach CWP wif px n my 2 sis at 12.20 to get a shirt for myself... i got a purple one... my bdae present from my sis... met oon then went to outside breadtalk at 1+... saw wilson n james there... wilson was wearing a shirt... well, i like guys wearing shirt.. haha! met darren, joel n drew( he wore shirt too) later... then teng loong, tracz n kong cheng came... i wore the necklace wilson gave mi last yr, but Px told mi to take it down... haha! they gave mi a swarovski necklace... snow flake... it's soooo beautiful!!! i love it alot.. my best neckalce... gave each of them a hug... the necklace is from, PX, oon, tracz, janis, darren, jun you, jason, zhi jun, drew, joel... love them! kong cheng gave mi a pair of earrings (actually, there's necklace, but he forgot to bring).. it's so unique n beautiful... black n white... i wore it.. nice! teng loong gave mi a card... i wasn't allowed to read it there... but when i went home n read it... omg! im touched... seriously... it's a beautiful card, written by a beautiful person hu have a beautiful heart... i love teng loong! after getting all tat, jason, ZG, leo n yew tat came... yew tat n leo gave mi a bear... which is extremely CUTE~!!! i like it alot... cos people dont usually give mi bear for bdae present... but i realli wanna have a few bears... ( i mean bears n not pooh bear or mickey.. dun noe y i dun like them...) the bear is now always beside mi when i slp.. haha!

we set off to somerset to go for POOL!!! haha! i tink i've been playing pool for alot of times recently... haha! we went to monstercue... jason n gang came ltr as they need to eat... we started playing n had lots n lots of fun... but some people were feeling down... but the eventually got better... i was actually kinda influenced by them... had about 2+ hr of pool... then we went to hereen to shop... haha! didn't realli shop la... just stand there n wait for joel to buy his watch.... it's a veri nice watch... but EX... lol! we walk to the mrt station to go to marina south... oon left, tracz n jason left too... gave each of them a hug n thank them for coming...

when we reach the marina bay mrt station, zg told us not to be physco by the lady.. so just followed his instruction... i've to say seriously tat ZG does have the potential to be a veri gd leader... it's just tat it's not brought out... i feel quite relax wif him around.. cos he can deal wif most of the stuff.... haha! i told him to 'settle' all the stuff for mi... haha! had steam boat... n my parents came wif a cake ltr... enjoyed ourselves... but it rained n we had to move in... dun noe is feng shui not gd or wat la... when we went in, PX, drew n mi got scalded... cute lor... ZG can realli talk n talk... but wifout him i tink we will realli be veri quiet... had a chocolate cake.... n they sang happi bdae VERI VERI VERI loudly... felt so touch... haha! everione had a cake... haha! n i feed everi single one of them... had a few pic n there's one pic tat janis n px kiss mi...haha! they KISS MI!!!! haha!

we went for a walk after tat... ZG was our tour guide... im lucky to have wilson n teng loong by my side... cos i was kinda unstable when i was walking on the grass... lol! i almost fell n grabbed wilson... n teng loong is such a gentlemen... when there's a slope, he'll stretch out his hand for mi to support... so nice of him....

haha! i felt like a princess on this bdae... kong cheng was cooking the food for mi... i didn't do much cooking at all... i'm pampered!!!! haha! i love every single one of them... thanks for coming.... n making my 16 bdae a memorable one! thanks alot... i hope to spend all my other bdaes wif u guys... i'll realli realli miss every single one of u... thanks for everything... (i'll go kbox wif u one day, promise u yew tat).... im 16... 1 yr older... hope tat im getting more n more mature... n more n more independent...

for today, we had geog lesson... it's not realli a lesson la... we were filmed by someone from MOE... so the most of the time, we were just playing... we were told tat we'll be grped... n we were grped by picking a card from the box... i choose a smog... saw jemi getting the same one as mi... "yeah!" tat's wat i felt... haha! i dun noe y, but suddenly, i had a feeling tat jasz is in my grp... n well, she turn out to be in my grp... haha! zi yond also in my grp... the last person was kinda surprising.. didn't expect him to be in my grp... well, people said it's fate but i tink it's pure coincident... people were making fun of us... cos we had to sit together... hmmm... just had a fun time talking bout terrorist n stuff...

this few days, i keep on tinking bout the past... the past 4 years... all my friends n stuff... i noe tat i'll stay in contact wif all of them... but when i tink about the past... it also reminds mi of 'tat' past... we meet, we sat together... we started becoming gd fren... the first thing he gave mi in sec 2.. the rumours... the things he gave mi in sec 3... wat happened in sec 3... n followed by wat's happening now... i miss everything... when i read watever he wrote before... i'll start thinking again... is it possible? no, it's not... im sure about it... it's just veri sweet to have this kinda memory...

sometimes, i tink tat he'll be the onli person i'll fall for in my life... well, tat's wat i tink... but might not be true... i dun wanna lose contact wif him... n hope not to... he's a veri special guy... the first person hu i realli fell for... the first guy i cried for.... all the pain... 3 years ago, i told my fren tat i'll nv be wif someone whom i realli realli love... someone hu stands 100% in my heart... cos i noe tat, my heart will break one day... 3 years ltr, i realli realli love someone... n as said before, i'll nv be wif him... but my heart still broke... haha! n for people hu ask mi, whether i've ever thought of converting for him... i shall tell u now.... yes... i've thought of... even now, i feel like becoming a free thinker... or maybe even christian... love overcome everything? does it? i dun noe....

now, i just wanna be friend... someone hu care for him, n someone he care for...

for people hu r attached or in love... treasure the person u have.... treasure the person u love... it's hard to have someone hu loves u n u love him too.... just tink... how mani billions of people there r in this world... noeing each other is already veri diff... falling in love is even tougher... pls remember.......................................