Darkness Lee

first n foremost! HAPPY BIRTHDAY OON!!!! my best friend... n ok, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JUN YOU!!! our new S2J member...

ok, today should be a happy day, but it isn't... silent reading period broke everything...

Mrs Ngoh came to mi earlier in the morning to hav a practice for the english cum chi speech comp.. i didn't memorise, i didn't get ready.. im just so damn busy this week n last week... i had no time at all... n when she heard mi read.. she said, u didn't read.. u didn't memorise.. comp is this sat... im not in ani mood to scold or stuff... but she realli made mi veri stress... n for the whole day, the whole ss, a maths, phys i've been trying to memorise the chi essay... n i cant.. i cant concentrate! n there's still an eng essay! i dont noe how im going to survive...

i told mdm chong about it after night study... n she asked if i want the comp or not.. i said no n she said tat she'll try her best to fight for it... cos she had already told mrs ngoh no more comp for us... i dont noe wat to do.. i dunnoe how to face mrs ngoh... the comp is this week n im trying to escape now... telling her now tat i dont want.. it's so irresponsible of mi... i suddenly dislike myself.. i've been known to be a "leader", but now.. i doubt myself.. i dont have the veri basic part of leadership... responsibility... i hate myself for tat..

oon's sad n i did nth... i fail as a fren... she needed us.. but we weren't there... i feel so guitly... cried when i read her blog... im realli so sorri...

before phys, we went to cwp then to lib.. when we were rushing back to sch, we helped an old lady... she lost her way so we were trying to help her find.. so in the end, we were late.. n had to stand in one line n explain to the class y we are late... i was the spokesperson n told them the reason.. although they said they forgive us.. but i feel tat no one trusted wat i say... it just sux.. i just dont like tat feeling... it's the truth nth but the truth... haiz.. nth i can do to change wat they tink.. i wen xin wu qui...

phys pract was ok... just tat im blind n cant see cos... stupid person here... but i manage to finish.. even if it's not right.. but nvm... i've tried!

tml is the day... i tink this few weeks has been the worst weeks of my life.. i need courage.. the courage to face wat i have to face... yet, i cant find it..