the day

ytd was i busy day.. n maybe also a sad day.. i got back my chi o result n also had oral...

watch the doc on, ok, i forgot the name.. then had maths, then pe, then bio, then recess.. then result is ok...

dont wish to write alot.. i got B3 n D for oral.. almost all my other friends got A1.. congrats to them first...i was ok at first but when i saw karen, i almost cried.. but i held it back.. i controlled my tears through the whole day n finally, it broke out while i was reading my friends blog.. i didn't dare to cry in front of them.. n only karen understands how sad i m.. even my parents n siblings dont... im sad not because of my result.. i did up to my expected grade.. n my parents were happy tat i got B3.. cos tat was totally out of their expectation... im just sad tat after the result, only karen n oon actually talk to mi.. it's not tat im saying the others dont want to talk to mi.. it's probably just tat im sensitive.. for the first time.. i realli realli feel left out.. although some might not notice it..

i suddenly remember wat my sis told mi.. i actually felt luckier than her.. she was like mi.. when she got back her result, it was B3.. all her 3 best friends scored A1... n when they came together, the 3 of the held hands n jump n circle round my sis.. i can actually feel how she felt at tat point of them...

i wanted to have someone to talk to ytd.. but i tink (for the first time), i found no one.. im just sad.. just sensitive.. im not going to retake.. although my sis thinks tat i can.. but when she heard tat B3 students got to study chi during sch hours, she told mi not to.. cos in YTSS, those hu scored B3 n wants to retake, do not have to have chi lesson...

oral was good.. n im satisfied wif wat i said.. i was kinda confident.. n tat's the onli thing tat cheer mi up slightly ytd.. but another thing is, everyone felt satisfied n confident..

when to my father office, had buffet there after the praying n stuff.. went home at bout 7++.. then bathe n went to help out at the back of my condo, got praying too, for today...

i finally found the way to make mi not feel sad.. keep myself busy.. cos when im busy.. i tink about nth..

to my friends, i dont mean to say tat u guys r not gd or stuff.. it's just tat sometimes we dont tink the same.. maybe to u guys, u would tink tat not bringing it up will make mi feel better.. but.................

im deleting this post after today.. cos i tink, i'll be getting better..