im sorri..

pls forgive mi for watever thing i've done.. sorri for interfering wif the business tat's none of mine.. n now i get myself into this situation n my friends in too.. im sorri, peixian... u cared for us.. but all turn out bad.. i thought it's over, n i realli hope it is now... the first time, my tears roll for friendship..

i might fall in love again.. but definitely not wif him.. is this a gd sign? or is it another trouble? i dont noe.. n im kinda scared to try.. my heart's pumping real fast this few days.. n my face goes red when talking bout him.. i dont noe wat i see in him.. maybe it's just a crush.. maybe it'll be over real soon.. well, i dont noe yet..

my friends.. im realli realli going to say out wat im feeling now.. im scared! im scared of losing my friends.. Oon is still 4ever the same, we talk we joke n everything's fine.. Karen, no prob too.. Jemimah, well nth to worry about.. Janis, well nth to worry too.. tracz, im having serious problem facing her.. maybe it is just something blocking in my heart.. hope it'll be removed soon.. n for px.. she's the real first friend tat made mi realli open my heart to.. in my pri sch,i nv had a real best friend.. n she is the first person i realli trust n totally care for.. yet im feeling tat the bond is shaken.. n we're moving further n further from each other.. im scared, im sensitive.. im realli scared of losing her as my friend.. i dont feel gd.. maybe im just over sensitive.. but i just wish to be assured..

i dont wish to find comfort in others arms... but sometimes, i just realli wish to have a shoulder for mi to lean on.. i fight n want the best.. but m i losing more during the fight for it? y cant i stay persistent in some stuff.. y must i be shaken so easily by all the things around mi.. kinship, friendship n love... im having probs wif all... haha! m i a failure?......................