i noe alot will be seeing this... but im gonna be frank... today....

it's all dark outside.. time now is 12.22 am.. another day of the holiday have past... as the holi comes to an end, i started feeling sadder n sadder... my feeling now... terrible, i wanna cry but no tears is flowing down.. i wanna scream but no sound wants to leave my mouth...

im hurt... throughly hurt... thoroughly hurt... my heart is crying n i can feel tat...

since the day i tried to block him... i knew tat i had nv forgotten him... n he nv fail to stay in my heart... i noe it's useless... yet i still continued having him in my heart.. i say tat i wanna forget him.. but deep down, i noe i dun wanna... at tat time, i did say i dont mind not being wif him... but deep down, i noe i wanna... he's not like ani other guys i've been wif... he's the onli guy, till now tat i loved... n this sentence comes wif nth but the truth... im deeply in love wif him...

wat happens when 2 good friends end up loving the same guy? 3 persons getting hurt..

she loves him... i noe she do.. i feel she do... her actions, her feeling, her words... everything... when i talk to her about things of tat guy, i can feel some jealous in her... but wat can i do...

he told mi to tell her tat he doesn't love her... i did.. just now... n im shock about her reaction.. she's angry, she's hurt, she's deeply in love wif him...

wat should i do......................................................

i emailed him... n i noe i have to face this... i dont wish to hide it ani more... im hurt... im sad... im feeling terrible... i dun noe y, but i feel tat im the third party...

love is a mixture of sweet, sour, bitter, spicy... yet everyone likes to be in loved... likes to be loved...

again i say.....
if being in love hurts this much... i dun wanna be in love again.......

im signing off... wif i heavy heart tat had nv been this heavy before...