vice head

3 months? a veri long time... new blog skin, new year, new feelings n thoughts...

wat seems to always bother mi is the things between the prefects n the exco.. it use to be si li n the Xeco n now mi.. i finally understood n realli understood how si li felt.. its simple but it hurts deep.. deep down n it will stay forever.. n i mean forever..

i've been the person tat have been trying to solve the problems between them.. n now, im the person involve..

we were friends n partners in prefects.. but things started to change after i took up the post as the vice head.. it was ok at first, but problems started to grow as time passes..

we were unable to communicate well.. we had problems that we cant solve.. in the end, small problems turn into big problems.. n nv ended.. how i wish we could sit down n talk bout it..

i drew away from them as days passes.. esp this yr.. they started to form cliques.. n tat's wat i nv wanna see.. they always sit together.. actually , im at fault too... i nv actually told them to join the others n not to just remain as one grp.. i can also feel tat they r quite unhappy bout mi drifting away from them.. but hu would like to keep a distance from their friends?

i saw one of their blog entry.. n hurt mi deep.. was i wrong to get them to stop talking n read their story books? n noe that i was not using the right tone.. but the way they behave.. im not pointing to anione bout this.. cos alot were all at fault.. n i noe my tone also cos some of them to have conflicts.. n for tat incident tat day, im sorri..

when i saw the finishing part of his entry, im realli veri hurt..

yes, indeed.. i make fun of him infront of the prefects during the debrief.. but i thought tat he would understand tat im just jokin.. but i tink he dont.. n i just wanna say.. if i dont treat u as friend, i wont even bother to make fun of u.. n i nv will... i just hope tat u will be able to understand... i realli hope...

for the others, i noe u noe hu u r.. i just hope tat u will take some effort to mix around n not just stay as a grp.. i will nv hope tat my friends will turn into foes.. n i believe tat u guys understand how i feel, i strongly believe... i hope tat we can clear this misunderstanding.. realli hope so...

if i had known tat such thing will happen, i'll choose not to take up this post... vice head... i nv cared bout it... i'm willing to put down my tie pin n tie n let anione of u take it n have it.. i just hope u guys can understand y im doing the things tat im doing...

i would like to thank karen alot.. thanks!!! thanks for standing by my side all this while.. thanks for always caring for mi...

n also, thank u teng loong... this is specially for u...
thanks for noticing tat im tired..
n im realli tired...

when will this end? when will it???