time again

wow... this is the first post after i change my blogskin.. n i realli do love it... the most satified blogskin i ever got... cos it's... ALL BLACK!!!! just simply love it lah...

before i start anything, i must clarify... i dun love alvin like wat others say... cos i found an ans... want to noe, ask mi urself.... n apologise to alvin for wat others said...

okay soooo... starting this post from here...

i ended my "beautiful" english paper today n im still veri scared.. one down but there's still alot... haiz...

i just ask myself.. wat do i realli realli want but will never never get... n i found the answer... an elder brother... sounds ridiculous? maybe to some.. but wat i say is true.. having a sister is something good but i still love to have a brother... i dun noe the reason but it just a feeling i have inside mi... but... no matter wat.. this dream is realli just a dream... unrealistic.. my parents cant turn back time n give mi a brother wat.. so i learn to be satified wif wat i have...

so make a u-turn back to real life... so...... wat is my ambition??? a good qns... i ask myself alot of time n all this possible ans keep changing h changing... except for one... be an actress.. some people might think mi be an actress? some one hu is so fierce n looks so arrogant? yah, yah, yah... but until today i still feel tat i can act.. u dun believe try asking the prefects.. haha!!! but my mum just like to say being an actress wont allow u to survive in today's world... realli? maybe so... but dun care bout tat for now... another ambition is to be a lawyer... i admire lawyers n i do love law.. tat's wat i can confirm about... i realli realli do like to learn bout law.. it just seems to interest mi... but.. haiz... a lawyer might have to betray their integrity... n i hate tat... so is there any other job i can take up? can sumone tell mi????

actually, alot alot of sad things happened this few weeks.. but i realli realli dun wish to type it down... so if u wanna noe, ask mi urself... i might tell u...