Here, the story begins.....

it has been quite a few month since i came to learn bout this story. people might find it familar. actually, i decided to write, type, this story for my crappy partner. u shared ur story. now, i shall share mine. u might tink it is juz becos we r childish n stuff, but........

2 n 1/2 of yrs of secondary school life may seem short. but enough for people to fall in love or even hate one another. this "stupid" story happened during march holiday this yr. made a deep mark which is difficult to erase off. and i learnt alot of things during this period of time.

we didn't know each other until the first day we stepped into this sch of ours. everything seemed normal, we were juz students of age 13. classmate who dun noe one another. he sat beside mi in sec 1. he was quiet, n i tried my best to make him talk. we became gd fren, n started joking n "playing" with one another. it is just normal isn't it. we thought so too. but it wasn't so.
we were still in the same class in sec 2. we no longer sit together but were still "close". one day, he gave mi a box of ferrero rocher as encouragement for my vball tournament. my classmate started spreading rumours in class. n started making fun of us. we told everyone tat its not true but they still make fun of us. we didn't care much bout it. n it didn't affect us much. or maybe it did, but we were unaware bout it. everything still seem normal. until..... this yr....
sec 3 life.... we were still in the same class. seeing each other almost every weekday. he gave mi a present one day with a letter. saying tat it was meant to be given on one of my fren birthday, which is valentine day. it might seem obvious to everyone. but i still denied. i dun believe n dun wanna believe. until one day in march. i stead wif one of my fren, but i had a very strange feeling. i was confuse, veri confuse... whenever i tink of my "stead", tat guy will appear in my mind. i was unsure n asked my fren whether i fell for tat guy. soon, i finally noe... i like him. i told him on MSN n his reply was. i like u too. i was happy, but things weren't tat simple. he wrote mi a testi(which i deleted already, so dun try looking for it) n my fren found out tat he like mi too. everyone knew bout it, n we didn't want to hide it. we had to face a truth, his a christian n im a taoist. he told mi we cant be together. stead was impossible for us. cos he love his religion alot. n being wif a non christian was a no no for him. i understood n told him. its okay with mi. stead is not important. one day, he told mi tat he is going to be veri "cold" to mi. cos he wanna stop the feeling. i cried n told him im going to stop it too. n so the next morning came, we went to sch as per normal. but sumthing shocking happened. he cried in class. i rush to the toilet wif janis following mi. i ran not becos i wanna cry, but becos i dun wanna see him. days pass, i email him telling him not to be "cold" towards mi animore. its useless. n thus we started talking again, but not as much as the past. he christian frenz talked to mi. wanting mi to change my religion so tat we could be together. but my religion is also veri important to mi. i love my religion n taoist meant alot to mi. i had happi n sad times being a taoist, n i believe in my god. i told his frenz, i wont change my religion. even if i will go to hell( cos one of his fren said tat i would go to hell if i dun believe in jesus. n he called mi to choose between hell or heaven. i chose, hell) he wanted mi to convert too. but i told him i dun wanna talk bout it animore. fren around us kept on asking us to stead. but we wont. even if i want to. i started to hate him , not knowing y, this feeling juz came to mi. he thought, at first, tat im joking. but soon he found out tat im true. he followed mi hm one day, to noe y i hate him.i called him to go hm, soon we were back to normal again.

when im typing this story. i dun hate him neither do i love him. we r fren nothing more than frenz.

i juz wanna tell u. love is not being together but seeing ur love being happy n u will be contented. tat's wat u define love. isn't it. my feeling towards him might not be as strong as urs towards her. but i believe tat, time can change everything. memories r meant to be kept in ur heart, taken out at time to remember the special feeling. find another gal. she might not be as gd the gal u love or maybe once loved. but she might be able to love u more than any one else would. u would find sumone. u would! but before u find one, spent ur time n ur love wif ur gal ,tifa. happiness always. im always ur crappy partner! find mi if u need help! i can be serious too =p take care!