old sch days

ouch. i just cut myself while packing my stuff. bleeding now. haha

just found some old stuffs. presents to be exact given by diff frens n people who appeared in my life. some gift as old as 8-9yrs =)

n i realise who lucky i've been in my life. people who walk mi through my stages of life. these special people, friends who'll always lie deep in my heart and will nv be forgotten.

people who have shown affection for me in pri, sec sch n other stages of my life. i thank all of u for making mi feel loved and treated specially, like a princess. it may just be a puppy love or just a misjudgement of ur feelings, but nevertheless, u guys appeared and made my life diff.

N to u the special one who realli made an impact to my life. the one who made mi cried so mani times (yes, it's YOU!) thanks for all the concern u've shown mi, even till today. just read the letters n notes tt u wrote in those days. n the gifts just reminds mi of watever happened then. sweet memories for mi. N i thank u for all of tt =)

And of cos S2J. Just lots of love and words tt i cant express. TRACIE!!!! i just read the post card tt u gave mi for my bdae 3 yrs ago. the one with our pictures infront. Where u wrote those words for my kids in the future, telling them the presence of all the aunties and uncles who made an impact to mummy's life. I promise i'll keep tt forever and show it to my beloved kids in future and urs too when we gather tgt with our family =) LOVE S2J

I've changed quite alot as compared to when i was in sec sch. be it looks or character. i miss the old mi but also love the current mi. those were the days, when trouble was onli wif sch work. the young days and the young me........

13th the Friday

I'm growing fat. Dun like the fact tt my tummy is growing. haiz! y cant it be like my hand growing?! stupid. But tt's beside the fact. haha! Im in aussie and have been having nice food this few days. I tink i slim down in gold coast but growing fatter in melb thx to ee sharon for taking such gd care of us =))

tonight is my last nite in aussie. the 8th nite spent in aussie. and it just started to rain quite heavily. i've have to say tt i haven enjoyed myself in aussie, and i can onli blame myself for tt. skin been giving mi problem, my attitude, temper etc. ain't gd when i was here. i'm just nt use to gg on such holi wif my family i tink. nt tt i dun like their accp, it's just tt things are changing, im changing. i no longer am like the old gal i use to be. i dun like games, i dun like watever we had been doing. im weak and im freezing in aussie. n now im regretting deciding to go to hk cos it's winter now. gt to prepare lots of THICK clothings for myself.

bought alot of stuff here. first time i've spent so much on myself while being overseas. nt i gd sign to mi. gt to earn more when im back in sing cos i've still my sis's sponsorship of 500-600 =p hahaha! at the mean time, im also brainstorming how to make her party real nice! ideas... pls come.

im missing singapore since i step on the plan. Aussie isn't mi, life in aussie is gg at too slow a pace for mi to keep up. N i concluded n confirmed something aft this trip. this is wat i told my sis, "Don't worry, in a few years time, I'll be in Sing Uni waiting for ur return =)" tt's if she's realli coming to Aussie to study which I noe in her heart she doesn't want to.

im feeling all mixed up now both mentally and physically. feel like im falling ill and tt this trip hasn't let mi relax much at all. my temper has been getting from bad to worse, so have my body i tink.

Anyway, I've gotten my license. And now Im certified to drive =) Feel no excitment i told my sis. Maybe cos i didn't get to drive aft i gt my license cos i was all packed and ready to fly to aussie. I wanna drive tt's all i can say. been like telling myself. im gg hm im gg hm, i'll get to touch the steering wheels soon. anyone dare to sit my car. hahahah!

driving test was quite an experience. of cos, i pass with bad results compared to my sis and her frenz. but i wasn't realli tt upset, cos i tink i gt the least demerit pts compared to people hu took the test wif mi. my examiner didn't talk much as usual, but worse was tt his actions were so small and confusing tt i was trying to guess wat he wanted. n yes, as expected, IT RAINED! i did my parking without being able to see the lines at the window. was just base on my estimation. vision was poor and i met alot of hazard. i've to say im nt as luck as my sis. hahahaha! when i was suppose to park back, my examiner didn't go the way i was taught. he wanted mi to just slot in slanted from the other side and i wasn't instructed clearly so i went the wrong way. HAHAHAH! but stop in time to make i quick turn which gt mi back to the rite side =)

went to the room sat down waiting wif no one wif mi. my examiner was at the comp for sooooo long and i was mentally preparing to accept tt i fail cos i drove was then my past few lessons. when my examiner came back he just gave mi the paper, stamped and told mi to go to room 5. i was glad when i saw passed. msg zq tt i failed and she asked mi is it becos i was too nervous. then i replied her, but they force mi to watch video. hahahaha! called mum n told her i failed, SHE DONT BELIEVE MI!!!! sometimes i'm just amazed by my mother. i took my basic w/o telling her, but when i called her, she just somehow guessed tt i went for theory and insisted i pass. n just like this time, she insisted i pass when i failed. tt's my mum =) waited damn long to get my temp license. chat wif the other testees. rush hm, bathe n to the airport. tt's how my 13th Nov, Friday (13th the Friday) was spent. Bad Friday? Nope, 13 has always been my fav no. n 13th the friday, my fav day =) of cos, gt to thank shi gong too =)) btw, how bad i pass, 14 demerit. everyone else gt 16 so, i feel alright =)

im happy =)

So slpy but still gt orchestra ltr.

I'm so loving my grp of besties. Thanks guys for coming down ytd n for all the gifts=)

Feeling mix up today. A little worried but at the same time hope to accept.

You know the decision to make =)

perfections

Home, after 1.5hrs of orchestra performance at Bishan North. Crowd is ever the same. I look at you and talk, you look at me and dont respond. But how can I be not use to it. It has always been a I save me and I reply myself kind of situation. hahaha is all I can say =)

Again, I've been thinking alot recently. Thinking about how silly I am when it comes into relations with people, how strong I am when I face different challenges and most important, how lucky I am to be born into this family, this world and this me.

I am not a perfect girl, do not have a perfect family and do not live in a perfect world. And through all this imperfection, I start to learn that God is fair to all by being unfair and unequal to all. We always say that god is unfair, be it with regards to rich or poor, ugly or pretty, clever or stupid. But in actual fact, god is fair to all as it balances everything one have to make everyone equal.

Lucky, I am, very to be truthful. Born into a well to do family, given a nice family, not so bad look and character. Hardships, not really met any. Stages through life have been rather smooth. How smooth?

Kindergarten, top the whole Ang Mo Kio, well liked by all teachers.
Primary School, graduated with not so bad result and as head prefect, well liked by all teachers
Secondary School, graduated with not so bad results, as vice head and again well liked by teachers.
Joined numerous story telling comp, won scholarships, performed in orchestra, emceed and quite recognised.

I've lead a life that not many will actually get to try. Life has been perfect till I fell ill. The small imperfection that balances with others.

But still, I am lucky. lucky to be in this family. the ability to support me both financial and psychologically. Although my family doesn't give me much freedom but they are people who will always be there when I have any problems. Without them I wouldn't have been able to live till now.

God have made me a strong and independent lady. Able to survive well alone. But at the same time. It seems to have lessen the chances of her meeting the right ones. It's fair. Real fair, cos before it lower my chances, it gave me the ability to live without it. Lucky ain't I =)

There's just so so much I wanna say but cant say out. In short, I am just a lucky gal, a lucky imperfect gal =)

home

PX IS HOME=) MEET OUT SOON K S2J!!!

birthday

Happy Belated Birthday to mi =)

First and foremost, THANK U ALL FOR UR BIRTHDAY WISHES!!!

Had a very enjoyable night. All thanks to Liquids peps for having this party for me. An the gifts =)) Also thank justin, chay boon, dexter n xinyi for gg to club.

Presents
1. Espirit wallet + cash + cake from Auntie Kelly n Uncle Gordan
2. Red Packet from Mum, Auntie Violet, 4th Aunt n MY SIS!!!
3. Necklace + Mango Cake + Bouquet of Sunflowers! from Liquids Peps =))
4. Bouquet of Roses + "Love" Bear from Chay Boon!!! WOW! hahaha
5. 3 Rings + "Clubbing" Attire from myself
6. Birthday Card from my 3 Darlings, Sherman, Donnon and Shannon
7. Bag from Peggy

I love you guys! Make u guys spend so much. THANKS ALOT!

And ya, I got 1 jug of beer + 2 shots tequilla as bdae present too =(

Correction, it should be at Chow House. Crown Plaza is another restaurant =p

mummy laaa

Solved the Dining problem. It's settled on Mon next wk cos Tues is teachers' day! =)

Conversation with Mum
Week ago,
Mi: Maybe we can go Honjin for buffet cos now got 1 for 1 promo for DBS card
Mum: Where isit?
Mi: Robinson Road i tink. Crown Plaza or something like this.
Mum: Oh okok

Few Days ago,
Mum: So you decide where to eat
Mi: Either Honjin or we can try Sakura @ Admiral Park
Mum: Nice or not? And where?
Mi: Tink not bad. Sakura at Woodlands there. Honjin is at Robinson Road
Mum: Robinson Road where?
Mi: Crown Plaza there lo.

Nearer Few Days ago,
Mum: So we go where eat?
Mi: Honjin la! Tell you before liao.
Mum: Where?
Mi: Robinson Road la. Crown Plaza there.
Mum: Oh ok.

2-3 Day ago:
Mum: Cannot go on my bdae, cos nxt day gt sch. Go on ur bdae
Mi: Cannot la, I got plan liao lo
Mum: Then how? Where we go eat?
Mi: How I know. Tell u le wat, Honjin eat buffet cos DBS gt 1 for 1
Mum: Then where is it?
Mi: I tell u alot of times liao leh. Robinson Road at Crown Plaza I tink
Mum: How to go.
Mi: Dun noe. Check le tell u

Just now in the aft arnd 2+
Mum: We go eat next monday cos tues sch holi
Mi: OKOK =)
Mum: So where we gg to eat??
Mi: MUMMY! I TELL U 4-5 TIMES LE LEH!!!! HONJIN FOR BUFFET!!!
Mum: Oh ya hor. But where is it ah?
Mi: ROBINSON ROAD AT CROWN PLAZA
Mum: Oh Okok

Just recently arnd 5 (As we reach novena on the way hm)
Mum: This is Novena
Mi: I Noe ah
Mum: So where we eating at Novena?
Mi: (Wondering whether we having dinner her) We having dinner at Novena meh?
Mum: No ah, I mean the Bdae dinner, what restaurant at Novena?
Mi: NOVENA???!!! is ROBINSON leh!!! I TELL U ALOT ALOT OF TIMES LIAO!!!
Mum: "Start laughing." Aiya, Novena and Robinson same ma.
Mi: Where got same???!!!!
Mum: Gottt.... Nove=Robin same ma. Onli na and son different.
Mi: Where got same???!!!! haiz, nvm!

Laugh! tt's my mum!

i wannaa.........

I wanna go to sooooo mani places to dine!!!

1. 15 Minutes to chill at night.
2. New York New York @SSC
3. Xin Wang HK Cafe for dessert
4. CHIJMES or any place for Fine Dining
5. The Gallery @ Sembawang SAF Yacht Club
6. Admiral Bar and Grill
7. Itacho Sushi @ Ion
8. The List Goes Onnn......

But first, I need to earn enough to do so. Hahahahahah!